Zenith
Sky is the limit, if we persevere diligently
But do I wish to reach the sky, fly high?
No one asked me!
From way back, when I was pint sized
Working hard, achieving was in, but was it for me
No one asked me!
Flailing, floundering, swimming, floating
I passed out with not so flying colors, how so
No one asked me!
Meandering in a world, not of my making
I pass the time, biding it moment to moment, why
No one asked me!
My wishes n aspirations were of another realm
The yardsticks were not so mercernary, but
No one asked me!
Now I am neither at the zenith nor the nadir of life
I hang loose somewhere in between, am I happy?
No one asked me!
Know what you want and then go for it
With single minded zeal, what for
No one asked me!
Hard work will take you to the zenith
Would any one else care but you, I know not as
No one asked me!
“We all live under the same sky, but we don’t have the same horizon.”- Konrad Adenaur
Therapy
She called, he answered
She visited, he was available
She spoke, he listened
She lay down, he watched
Her monologue made him nap
Amidst interjections, she went on…
He hypnotized, she dozed
He quizzed, she spoke
He laid two fingers on her pulse
Snapping them to free her from repose
Armed with insights, he loosened her
Uptight nerves, giving relief ever so slight
The caregiver then himself
Lay down feeling drained
Due to all knowledge gained
That shook him to the core
As he searched for answers
To heal and not to hurt any more
His mind drew tangents, going
In all directions and moaning
As he came up for air, groaning
The solution was not so ordinary
Need of hour was make believe surgery
Performed realistically with caring
A day was set and she was ready
He hypnotized n her pulse was steady
He assured her in her somnolent state
That all malaise would surgically abate
Then she woke up in a hospital CCU
And lo behold an actor/doctor entered on cue
Now feeling light, airy and well
Her wayward thoughts no longer dwell
On anecdotes that she needs to tell
The therapy had succeeded to quell
All fears real and imaginary and thus
She need not resort to any whistle or bell!!!
Words of comfort, skillfully administered, are the oldest therapy known to man.
-Louis Nizer
Tyranny
Without warning, it crept into her life
And the bright day darkened..
She had no inkling
The well-loved face changed color
She had no inkling
This chameleon blew hot and cold
She had no inkling
The tongue wounded and stunned
She had no inkling
She cocooned into a ball
In self preservation
She covered her face
In self preservation
She leaned out of harm’s way
In self preservation
Bewildered her mind raced
In self preservation
He stomped and fumed
Spitting vituperations
Searing her spirit and soul
Heaping ignominies
Even slapping and hitting
Leveling her self esteem
Fear welled inside
Her back was against the wall
She had to find succor
She had to flee this stranger
She had to overcome fear
She had to find a safe haven
She had to find inner strength
She had to find her feet
Swiftly and quickly dashing
Out of harm’s way!
“The face of tyranny is always mild at first.” -Racine, Britannicus, 1669
“Of all the tyrannies on human kind, the worst is that which persecutes the mind”
-John Dryden, The Hind and the Panther, 1687
The King
The throne fell in his lap at age sixteen
His body was tall, muscular and lean
His head was well shaped even in the teens
His carriage n demeanor bespoke his royal genes
He had an equal measure of solemnity and gaiety
So all his hangers on had to come up with things witty
He did not suffer fools gladly n dismissed them in a jiffy
His royal courts were full of entertainment and sobriety
Once a month he went to the nearby forest for a jaunt
Chasing a sleeping tiger or a lion or even a tiny fawn
The pickings were abundant but often quite scant
But that did not faze him as he took life on a slant
On his next foray he saw an old man seated under an oak
Who did not bow or blink upon seeing his royal cloak
But stroked the bonfire in front with a gentle poke
His highness was mystified at this silent rebuke
He got off his horse and bowed towards the old man
Asking him for words of wisdom with his face wan
The old man said he too was once a king with great élan
But realized its futility as he had no control over his life span
So he gave it all up and sought answers in the jungle
Not worrying a bit about his riches n consequent bungle
Just pondering upon life and its great mystery and the tussle
Between life n death and the struggle to put the mind in a muzzle
It was an uphill and a hard task that he had set upon himself
As the mind was like a slippery eel darting about in the reef
To spike it required an enormous strength of will was his belief
Otherwise one continued struggling haplessly and acquired only grief!
And with these few words he fell back into his silent reverie!
“Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back into the same box.”–Italian Proverb
The Leather Coat
Little horrors lurk in the deep recesses of my mind
Curled into tight balls and shoved into the innermost
The remotest and out of reach corners of my conscious self
Banished into sweet oblivion speeded by instant amnesia.
Coming of age is pregnant with new dangers of coping
Afraid of falling on my face I flail my hands frantically
Seeking past yardsticks to help maintain my equanimity
And unfurl and uncurl those tight balls of hurts one by one
Time of reckoning has come and these have to be dealt with,
Faced and accepted and then let bygones be bygones
Thus building a bridge to deal with present problems
With great aplomb and without hiding behind a shrink!
Coming to terms with myself makes me light headed
Frees my spirit and I am full of joy and bonhomie
Now nothing can get me down as my self-awareness
Has freed me from the slavery of self-pity and cowardice
I am what I am with all the frailties and imperfections
I am the unique me who can improve what is possible and
Accept what cannot be changed like my origin, my color and
My creed and learn to live in this body n this spirit with joy.
My outer leather coat is just an outer cover over my inner coat
It’s a color so true, unmarred by pink overtones of shame
Discoloring it — now after coming to terms with myself
I wear my skin comfortably, proud to be what I already am, ME!!!
“Pride makes some men ridiculous but prevents others from becoming so.”
-Charles Caleb Colton
Butterfly
Brilliant wings - hypnotic magnets
A Pied Piper attracting all willy- nilly
Akin to a moth drawn to a burning candle
Yet - blithely it glides on unawares.
Sprite-like and fancy free
Hopping from flower to flower
Teasing and tantalizing
A ruthless lover.
Sucking in the essences
Of the very flowers it graces
With its moody presence
And heartlessly flying away
Without attachments
Footloose transient Don Juan
A rolling stone, loving n leaving
Countless broken hearts
Strewn all over….
“Phyllis is my only joy,
Faithless as the winds or seas;
Sometimes cunning, sometimes coy
Yet she never fails to please.”
Sir Charles Sedley, “Song,” 1702
Where Am I
Where am I
In the scheme of things
I forget to ask myself
In this vast ocean of
Seething humanity, I am
But a speck of sand
In the endless stretching
Blue skies above, I am
But an insignificant star
Yet bloated near bursting am I
With self professed humanity,
Self importance and knowledge
Dark wicked thoughts
Do come and play often
Creating disharmony
Apologies are not okay
All the time and need
To be addressed swiftly
I am at peace however
As I can lay a finger on the
Root cause of my discontent
Now, to have some good thoughts
Always, is my mission but
I so like to be bad, at times!!!!
If a man happens to find himself, he has a mansion which he can inhabit with dignity all the days of his life.
-James A. Michener
Unspoken
Your silent cries
Went unheard!
Your tears, well hid
Went unseen!
Your inner turmoil
Firmly reined in by
Your outer calm
Successfully fooled me!
Clouded by my trite problems
I failed you miserably
Your heard me out patiently, always
You gave me words of wisdom, always
Your inner strength and stiff upper lip
Belied your vulnerability and inner soft core
Now my misery is complete, my self-absorption
Has made me diminish in my own eyes!
When you love, you do not say sorry
Making amends will not be easy
But try I must as I have to make amends
And learn to listen with my heart always
“I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, bit I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar.” - Robert Brault
Nesting
My spirit was down
My body battered
My will shattered
A haven was needed
A haven was found
Scared and bleary ravens are we
Gathered in safe havens are we
Conserving our energies are we
All rebuilding ourselves are we
Slowly rising phoenixes are we
Shreds of remnant dignity gathered
Patched n quilted into a colorful whole
A bit worn, a bit tatty yet our very own
These seeds of courage we have sown ‘cos
Now no amount of hardship can make us moan
These quilts of freedom bring us cheers
As free are we from blood bruises and tears
We adorn colors that are bright and cheerful
We have shed the color yellow oh so fearful
As there is no return ever to a life so shameful
We are strong today
We are invincible today
Our shakiness is a thing of yesterday
Our confidence is rebooting hard and fast
As no guilt n hardship willmake us downcast!
Our roots of freedom are firmly planted
For mother earth are we, no longer daunted
No storms or tornadoes can make us uproot
We will take chances, defy odds and bear fruit
Sweet freedom, peace and joy will be our loot!!!
(above was written after working at a shelter for battered people)
Violence is the last refuge of the incompetent.
-Isaac Asimov
The Lull
The sky was opaque n oppressive, the sea glassy n submissive
The boat barely rocked and the sea birds no longer mocked
The skin of the bloated sky was seared by veins of hissing lightening
That struck at will as pregnant clouds beat their breasts and roared
None would give in to the other, as the somnolent winds moaned!
Meanwhile, our lives hung by a thread as we cowered for warmth
Afraid to rock the boat, afraid of imminent deluge while frantically
Scanning the stark sea for refuge, we continued drowning in our fears
As swollen clouds broke water drenching with a gale force birthing
A squally storm in torment, and this newborn howled in a chilling lament
The little boat capsized as we swam desperately seeking any flotsam jetsam
To anchor on to albeit tenuously, just as our lungs threatened to collapse
We refused to give up, constantly flailing ever so feebly!
Then miraculously a friendly dolphin appeared from nowhere and
Piggyback we tackled the mighty waves seeking a beacon anywhere
The finned Samaritan brought us to a small vessel and circled it endlessly
Frantically, we called out ship ahoy loud and clear to all and sundry
This commotion lured a killer shark and both mammals had a free for all
Awakening the ship’s captain who heard the roars of the angry titans and
Quickly pried us off the dolphin, as we almost gave birth to a pair of kittens
Now the lull was over, the storm had blown and soon the retreated calm
In hiding slunk back yet to be replaced by an uneasy lull once again!
“Courage is not the towering oak that sees storms come and go, it is the fragile blossom that opens in the snow.” -Alice Mackenzie Swaim
